Living in and from our Inherent Nature of Truth and Freedom, what have we become free from? We all seem to assume we are someone, a self, that we call me, and create a self identity around it. I have discussed this in general in the previous essays, who and what we have become may be like a phantom self that is in doubt, empty, struggles and suffers the assumptions that we have placed on ourselves as being this self identity. If we want to move beyond this self created identity, we need to be able to inspect it enough to see we didn’t have full consciousness or awareness in its creation and it was created in environments in which we had little to no control on what was created and most likely didn’t know anyone involved really that well, so among strangers, even in the seeming family we grew up around. So, is any of it truly you?
So, like I mentioned in Evolutionary Aikido we need to contemplate each arena until we fall through it, like a hole in the universe, the place of our inherent spiritual freedom of beingness that we know as our true home. The home that is nowhere, that is the true place. In other words, where we have moved past our conceptualization of life and our habit of living concepts like they are us, they are truly powerful and yet when you can envision something in your mind that doesn’t exist, this can lead us into not knowing the difference of what is and what isn’t.
I received several emails asking how one can actualize what I brought to light in The ME of Undertanding. First off, we “need to desire” that we contact the truth of existence in our own life. If we do not have this sincere desire for Truth we probably won’t go any further in our spiritual investigation. This isn’t about anything or anyone else but YOU! In my own experience everything seems to work together if you have the burning desire for Truth, things, people, situations may fall away even though you don’t try to make them do this, certain aspects of your conceptual existence have held them in place and as soon as they are undermined through seeing through them, we become free from who we thought we were through our own mistaken conceptual creation.
We can be likened to a big ball of twine that started somewhere at sometime and we continually kept wrapping this ball with and as our life experience never questioning what it was all based on. When we start to awaken to who we thought we were, we are unraveling ourselves, our reactive life, our emotional stances, our self concept, image and how we think we really are as the persona we depict in the world, so unless we can get a grip on one’s self identity, we will continue making the ball of twine larger and tighter and cutting off the flow of ones possible contact with our Source origin.
I usually don’t use quotes, but, I will in this scenario, “ye shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free”. My question is, free from what? This question really has never been answered adequately, even though the scripture is very straightforward in its expression, from my experience with people no one ever questions what are we free from when we awaken to or realize truth. And, to get it further to the point of awakening to truth, what does that mean? Obviously, this can be a very wide and varied possible point of view rebuttal, because that is most likely how it will be reacted/responded to from everyone.
We can assume that awakening may have to happen somewhere out there in the world because again, most live in a linear consensus reality that is fabricated from one’s past beliefs about anything, conditioning from family and society, and just in general, emerging onto this planet that one knows nothing about except the “heresay” of the day about supposedly what is going on here.
So, we need a stepping off point where we can let go of our conceptual survival mindset which is the eternal NOW as mentioned in the essay NOWPRESCENCE. One of the email questions was “what happens to you?” when you start letting go of your conceptual self to the point of recognizing that you see through your self created self. If one has gone through numerous sessions about different aspects that one has created in the twine example above to the point of holding firm in their contemplation where they can get to the ground floor of the chosen specific issue then they can taste freedom of the truth which can be felt or experienced as a “conditionless condition”, in other words, it is not dependent on anything, there is no opposite to Truth which is an absolute and it is not of this self survival dimension.
It is your Original Nature which are only words pointing to a possible contact with “beingness.” The answer to the question “what happens to you?”is that the “conceptual you” never existed except in your assumption that it was you and was continually being reinforced by you desiring to get what you wanted or needed to continue your conceived survival.
The situations that have arisen in one’s life that we experienced that we never understood may have been frustrating because we had nowhere to go or at least that might have become our inner dialogue or we listened to the threats and or criticisms that rained down on us and we didn’t know where to turn. We needed an inner retreat which most of us at least attempted to create for ourselves which for the most turned out to be only reactions to pain, repressed emotional networks and gaps of mainly, misunderstanding. We may have turned to someone to sooth the agitation or at least have someone to talk to who might help sort out or understand what one had experienced. Even if we explained the event to someone it is still based in conceptual terms that probably were spoke to sooth both people but really had no valid way to understand it themselves.
In our practice of Aikido we learn to deal with a situation from an attack format so we are having to directly experience what it feels like to handle the situation with the Principles that are taught, along with kata. Since we are dealing with the situation directly, we have a direct semblance of situations that possibly can arise, if we look at this closely, the interaction is a way to keep going after an issue and finally through the spirito psycho physical approach of transcendence come to a flow understanding of how to deal with the attack in a way that is congruent with transcending what one would have done with their default approach and that could be disastrous, to self authenticate for themselves being able to resolve the issue with a totally different wholistic insight with their whole being.
This approach can be used to get beyond and eliminate deep seated internal conflicts by allowing ourselves to transcend who and what we thought we were and start living from the beingness that is the ”hole in the universe” that was always realizable but not as long as our life was being ran by concepts that we didn’t know existed that functioned as our operating system.
Through practicing our art from Principles applied simultaneously, we are consistently moving beyond our default whatever that may be and circumventing the ego-mind survival programming and allowing ourselves to understand the survival mind from a completely different perspective. One that allows us to move in a different way in existence that can bring about the freedom that was mentioned earlier but now can start to function for us as our real self or what we might experience as staying in the place of the unknown, so we may be able to stay in Prescence and be creatively open ended to “what is” and live in Beingness and be able to discern when the survival mind is trying to dominate and separate us from Existence Freedom purely. Thank you, Will Gable